A child of God weeps that he is sometimes overcome by the prevalence of corruption. "For I do not do the good that I want to do, but I practice the evil that I do not want to do." (Romans 7:19).
Repenting tears are precious. God puts them in his bottle (Psalm 56:8). Repenting tears are beautifying. To God—a tear in the eye, adorns more than a ring on the finger. Oil makes the face shine (Psalm 104:15). Tears make the heart shine. Repenting tears are comforting. A sinner's mirth turns to melancholy. A saint's mourning turns to music! Repentance may be compared to myrrh, which though it is bitter to the taste—is comforting to the spirits. Repentance may be bitter to the flesh, but it is most refreshing to the soul. Wax which melts is fit for the seal. A melting soul is fit to take the stamp of all heavenly blessing. Let us give Christ the water of our tears—and he will give us the wine of his blood!
Godly men weep over the evils whichare found in themselves, such as
. . . error,
unloving tempers and dispositions,
a proneness . . .
to remember wrongs,
to indulge complaints,
to forget mercies.
There is no plague like the plague of an evil heart! There is no misery like the wretchedness of 'conscious vileness'. There are no sighs so long and so deep-drawn as those caused by indwelling sin. Though the righteous shall not weep always, yet they may weep bitterly. "What a wretched man I am!" Romans 7:24"I abhor myself!" Job 42:6"Behold, I am vile!" Job 40:4"Woe is me! For I am undone!" Isaiah 6:5"Depart from me, for I am a sinful man, O Lord!" Luke 5:8
True repentance is a daily turning of the soul further and further from sin—and a daily turning of the soul nearer and nearer to God.True repentance includes . . . a true sense of sin, a deep sorrow for sin, a hearty loathing of sin, and a holy shame and blushing for sin.To repent is to make . . . a clean head and a clean heart; a clean lip and a clean life.To repent is for a man to loathe himself, as well as his sin. Is this easy for man, who is so great a self-lover, and so great a self-exalter, and so great a self-admirer—to become a self-loather? To repent is to cross sinful self,it is to walk contrary to sinful self, yes, it is to revenge a man's self upon himself.True repentance lies in a daily dying to sin, and in a daily living to Him who lives forever.