Lord I need thee every hour...
I think we all have a time or times in our walk with Christ where we have a hard time trusting in the Lord. I hope I am not coming across like I am looking for attention, or any pity, I am not…
I have to be honest about my prayer life, I use to have a hard time asking folks to pray for me because I felt I was seeking attention, when the truth is Attention is the last thing I ever enjoyed. I have always been shy, the funny thing is my husband is the total opposite of me, he is very out going…anyway back to praying and trust. There has been a lot going on in my families life this past 6 months with illness and it has been hard on the family. We are a close family and when one is hurting, we all hurt. As far as I know I do not think anyone in my family knows the Lord, my youngest sister says she does but I am not 100% sure.
Also, my husband and I have been feeling a lot of stress with our jobs in the past year, my husband is a Traffic Manager for a Medical company and also the Facilities Manager. Also when the Warehouse Manager is away from the office (Vacation, out of town, on courses etc) my husband is expected to fill his position. In the past year my husband is getting more stressed and tired and it worries me. My job has got stressful this past year because one of my families is a single parent family and the father, who has the children, had to go on Afternoon shifts and so I have his children from 12 noon Monday until Friday each week. And I have to be honest I am really feeling so tired. I am doing this because the mother of his children is not in the picture very much. I finally had to tell him today that I can not do this anymore come September and that was so hard to do because I've had these 2 children in my care since they were babies. The boy is almost 10 and the little girl is 6.
With all this going on, my husband and I are starting our vacation this Friday and we had planned to go Grand Rapids for 4-5 days and we really do not know what to do? It is so hard to go away with problems happening at home. I know my family and friends tell us GO, GO, but I am going to be honest, it is so hard to go…..I know I have to trust the Lord, but in situation I am really finding it hard to go and enjoy myself and not worry.
Please pray for me and my family and about our time away, Jim and have not been away together since we were first married, 24 years ago, I know we both really need this so much..and the trials that have faced my family this past week have made me realize How much I need to draw strength from the Lord..I am so tired.